Well first thing I have to say is "HAPPY ANNIVERSARY TO MY PARENTS!!!"
They have been married for 38 years today.
I've been so wrapped up in my personal soap opera, that I didn't even think of the date or anyone outside my house that isn't personally connected to me. So to that, I'm sorry mom and papa that I didn't wish you well before now.
My soap opera has been going on for quite some time. The loss of a job, the stress of the lack of money to pay bills or the things we need. Being without any income for over 6 months, leading to more stress and sleepless nights. To finally getting a job, but finding out that it isn't even enough to pay for the gas to get to the job. To getting another job closer to home, but finding out that you weren't promised the hourly wage you were told you were going to get, and then finding yourself getting sent home because business is slow. To the most recent of getting a "better" job, more money per hour, and guaranteed 40 hours a week with lots of overtime to find out that the boss decided not to pay any of his employees. Then having the silent partner take over the restaurant and changing the payday to a week later. Then having to worry ever so much that you still might not get paid.... and that's just the abbreviated version of our lives. Needless to say, getting a good nights sleep is almost null and void.
Throughout all of it, my family has drawn closer rather then falling apart. There are times when we feel like we are in each others pockets all the time, and the house just isn't big enough to have your own space. When the decision to either put gas in the van or buy toilet paper is the hardest thing to decide upon. Thank goodness my mom has helped as much as she could. Without her, I don't think we've done as well as we have. We've gone to the welfare office and they are providing us the means to get food, but there has been times when we didn't have the gas in the van to even go shopping. Needless to say, the local gas station has been our grocery store when we needed it. Local is key, its only a few blocks up the hill so its not so bad to walk it.
Well hopefully after much prayers and good thoughts, things will start to take a turn for the good. We so need it. My family has been so stressed. The kids are stressed at home, that leads to having bad days at school. Chris and I and our friend Eric find that we need to setup a time schedule for the bathroom. The dogs get jumpy and won't settle down so we end up barking at them to cool it when we can't figure out how to cool it ourselves. Luckily through all of this, no one has gotten sick where we need to see the Dr.
So onto a better time. As its said, if your at the bottom of the well, the only way out is up. I keep telling myself that "This to shall pass." Well maybe we are finally on the right track and are getting out of our well.
I believe that when things are finally better for us, my family will just collapse and sleep for about a month, just to feel the release of all the stress. So in the meantime, we keep praying for better things to happen and try to deal with things as they come.
So those are my thoughts of the night.
Till Later...
